Relaxation is needed. I'm awaiting for freedom. Can't wait for 30th October. 

My brain is exploding. It is on full load and nothing more can go in. I try soo hard. I'm too tired. I haven't been smiling lately. Fake giggles and laughs are for the sake of cheering people up. I cried umpteen times and dreaded the days. I even fell asleep halfway doing things. No matter where i am, tears will still roll down my cheeks. Sleepless nights. I just think too much.

I'm far from perfect. I'm 100% worst than imperfect. I just think that sometimes, life is just not worth living. But i'll have to treasure every single moment that i have with me.

To-do list:

-Pack my room.

-Buy study guides.

-Study

-Mug real hard

-Finish my own craft projects.

-Try hard to tackle guitar and study.

-Stop crying and start smiling (seems impossible)

-Try to sleep soundly.

I have things that seem too hard to accomplish. For me. I have been a bad guitarist lately. I don't know how to tackle my studies and guitar. So i put study as my first priority and just go to the books. My guitar skills are fading away. I only touch my guitar during guitar lessons and go clueless at the song book. Someone just tell me how to handle this. My life is in a total mess. Not many people care. But at least i self-learned how to strum. But it went to waste. My dreams of a guitarist had already faded away. I'm having writer's block. I'm running out of ideas for everything. My sketchbook lacks sketches. My song book lacks written songs. My essay notebook lacks essays. My ideas book lacks ideas. I need to study. I NEED. I know i'm a sadist and i'll always be one.

I didn't celebrate Mid-Autumn festival cause i don't have that interest now. Having a box of moon cakes in the kitchen is already satisfactory. One moon cake will also do the job.

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I'm PISSED OFF.

At everything.

My temper is rising and i can't take it anymore.

I'm pissed off that every single day and at every second of the day, a crazy old woman downstairs my house is always smoking outside the window. I'm sick of smelling second hand smoke at every little millimeter in my house! I close the windows and the smoke is still inside my house. Today, i banged the window, hoping for her to hear it. And i sprayed cold water downstairs. I hope that she has received the water. If she pisses me off, i'm gonna make her even more pissed off. If you were me, you will probaly explode into flames. She is the most inconsiderate and crazy person i've ever experienced in my whole entire life.

Before i was born, my Grandma had already lived here. The crazy woman too. My Grandma told me that she came up to our house umpteen times complaining that we were drying our clothes on the bamboo poles and the water dripped to theirs! And we obviously didn't have anything outside the window. And we live on the top floor. And my Grandma told me that she came up to us saying that we rented the house to foreign hooligans. Our house was NEVER rented. From the day my Grandma moved in, she has NEVER rented this house to anybody. That crazy hooligan once cursed another person with a huge knife in Toa Payoh. And she was obviously at fault. Luckily, the woman survived and is still living there. And she came up millions of times complaining that the air condition is leaking water down to their house. WE DIDN'T EVEN TURN ON THE AIR CONDITIONER!! I don't mind saying vulgar words at her. Cause she deserves it. I wish she gets arrested or fined or warned for inconsideration. Police officers and HDB people, feel free to question me about that crazy hooligan that i wish she would be experiencing what happened in Drag Me To Hell movie. I would be soo happy if that happened.

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I'm pissed off, at Stabilo pens. I know that is retarded but i got a freaking huge blister on my fourth finger and its still there!! I used their newest LeftRight pen. I just bought it yesterday. I chose the one at the farthest to the back and now, it ran out of ink. I was exploding so i slapped the pen soo hard on the table that the cap flew to the top of my desk. And the top which i mean a few inches to the ceiling. I scribbled like hell, i slapped it like hell but to no avail, the pen is still a pisser off. No pen in this universe has been obedient to me. Its just naughty and runs out of ink even when the ink barrel is full. Correction tapes are also naughty to me.

____________________________________

I've gotta go cause i wanna go. I blogged for more than half and hour.

Bye.

Relaxation is needed. I'm awaiting for freedom. Can't wait for 30th October. 

My brain is exploding. It is on full load and nothing more can go in. I try soo hard. I'm too tired. I haven't been smiling lately. Fake giggles and laughs are for the sake of cheering people up. I cried umpteen times and dreaded the days. I even fell asleep halfway doing things. No matter where i am, tears will still roll down my cheeks. Sleepless nights. I just think too much.

I'm far from perfect. I'm 100% worst than imperfect. I just think that sometimes, life is just not worth living. But i'll have to treasure every single moment that i have with me.

To-do list:

-Pack my room.

-Buy study guides.

-Study

-Mug real hard

-Finish my own craft projects.

-Try hard to tackle guitar and study.

-Stop crying and start smiling (seems impossible)

-Try to sleep soundly.

I have things that seem too hard to accomplish. For me. I have been a bad guitarist lately. I don't know how to tackle my studies and guitar. So i put study as my first priority and just go to the books. My guitar skills are fading away. I only touch my guitar during guitar lessons and go clueless at the song book. Someone just tell me how to handle this. My life is in a total mess. Not many people care. But at least i self-learned how to strum. But it went to waste. My dreams of a guitarist had already faded away. I'm having writer's block. I'm running out of ideas for everything. My sketchbook lacks sketches. My song book lacks written songs. My essay notebook lacks essays. My ideas book lacks ideas. I need to study. I NEED. I know i'm a sadist and i'll always be one.

I didn't celebrate Mid-Autumn festival cause i don't have that interest now. Having a box of moon cakes in the kitchen is already satisfactory. One moon cake will also do the job.

_________________

I'm PISSED OFF.

At everything.

My temper is rising and i can't take it anymore.

I'm pissed off that every single day and at every second of the day, a crazy old woman downstairs my house is always smoking outside the window. I'm sick of smelling second hand smoke at every little millimeter in my house! I close the windows and the smoke is still inside my house. Today, i banged the window, hoping for her to hear it. And i sprayed cold water downstairs. I hope that she has received the water. If she pisses me off, i'm gonna make her even more pissed off. If you were me, you will probaly explode into flames. She is the most inconsiderate and crazy person i've ever experienced in my whole entire life.

Before i was born, my Grandma had already lived here. The crazy woman too. My Grandma told me that she came up to our house umpteen times complaining that we were drying our clothes on the bamboo poles and the water dripped to theirs! And we obviously didn't have anything outside the window. And we live on the top floor. And my Grandma told me that she came up to us saying that we rented the house to foreign hooligans. Our house was NEVER rented. From the day my Grandma moved in, she has NEVER rented this house to anybody. That crazy hooligan once cursed another person with a huge knife in Toa Payoh. And she was obviously at fault. Luckily, the woman survived and is still living there. And she came up millions of times complaining that the air condition is leaking water down to their house. WE DIDN'T EVEN TURN ON THE AIR CONDITIONER!! I don't mind saying vulgar words at her. Cause she deserves it. I wish she gets arrested or fined or warned for inconsideration. Police officers and HDB people, feel free to question me about that crazy hooligan that i wish she would be experiencing what happened in Drag Me To Hell movie. I would be soo happy if that happened.

___________________________________

I'm pissed off, at Stabilo pens. I know that is retarded but i got a freaking huge blister on my fourth finger and its still there!! I used their newest LeftRight pen. I just bought it yesterday. I chose the one at the farthest to the back and now, it ran out of ink. I was exploding so i slapped the pen soo hard on the table that the cap flew to the top of my desk. And the top which i mean a few inches to the ceiling. I scribbled like hell, i slapped it like hell but to no avail, the pen is still a pisser off. No pen in this universe has been obedient to me. Its just naughty and runs out of ink even when the ink barrel is full. Correction tapes are also naughty to me.

____________________________________

I've gotta go cause i wanna go. I blogged for more than half and hour.

Bye.